Dear...

Yes, I know what I said was a taboo word. Yes, it was my fault, I was thinking another word when that word came out by mistake. I apologized for saying it and for the next couple days afterwards. You wanna know something, I worried so much from it that I made myself sick.

But now, you won't even talk to me. I can't sit with my other friends that you are also friends with, because I am still scared of you. I'm afraid that you will stare angrily at me until you make me cry. Most of the time I sit and eat by myself, because I can sense your presence in the cafeteria and that the negativity that your pushing out is directed at me. I wish you would stop and tell me that you don't care what I said and to come sit with you and my other friends. But, as I mentioned before you always seem so angry when I walk by.

I am sorry again!